Time to back to reality

Once again it nearly reach the end of the months and again it come to the 25th of feb.Remind me 3 years ago.The love story beginning here and everything was seem so prefect that time until i thought this will be last forever.But then things was not go so smootly after that.As far i know i am not guys that can give everythings you wanted,i have ever tried but then most of the time i failed to make you feel happy and satisfied.I hate being myself too sometimes.Hate my attitude hate my used to be busy in the pass hate to being not as a goof boyfried and lastly hate being myself for giving empty promise.

I was getting better beginning of the year but then in the last 2 weeks my mood getting worst and worst.I hardly can put my heart in doing one things.I don't like this kind of feelings but then i still have to accept it sometime.Maybe on of the reason is because valentine day fall in february and the one of the most important date is...!I dun feel like going to mention here.In the pass i know even distance keep us apart but then heart make us feel we are not far from each others.But then since the time we break up onwards,i know the following time going to be will be totally different.All these while i am scare to faced it.Few week before this i already feel the scare of the day to come.But then when the time pass 12,i know the date i ever dun wish to come already reach it.I really feel sad and i know 3 years ago and 3 years after things is totally different already.The first things obviously different is you does not love me anymore and you does not care anymore.I have been accepting all these while.

Again i take out my braveness to read all the message we used to send each other in the pass from the 1st day we meet until the day we break,i make a decision to delete it every single as well.Even i delete it but then all the contain still always remind in my heart and minds.Combination of these feelings come to my heart.I feel sad to let you go but then i think these might be the best option for you because you might be can find someone who can give you the best unlike me.Read it back see all the cuteness you having when you sms with me make me feel great coz at least i have you as before in my life.I wonld have not asking anythings more than that.Thanks god for having you in the pass.maybe it can't go as long as i wish but then i feel very satisfied.Having you to lighten my hope,my life,my dreams and everthings.This is the best present from the god to me because all these will become my memories forever!

Lastly,i hope things will be turning good for me after this.No more sad and more tears too.Would i be able to make it?I do really hope so!As for her,wish her all the best in the study back to melbourne and hope she can get someone to take care of her well there in the sametime too!